【說佛法給誰聽】(English writing below)
TO WHOM DO I SPEAK THE DHARMA TO
跟你說個秘密
我雖三年裡
做了近70個直播
大約600分鐘的視頻
每次開拍前
還是會緊張怯場
但人生很多事情
不能看你敢不敢去做
你還是得做
最初開直播的動力
來自於你們
想要讓你們
認識我喜歡我相信我
進而願意運用玄學和佛法
來改命立命
當中有彈有讚
當中有苦有樂
兩年前我開始
把直播內容剪輯成影片
上傳到YouTube
多了新的觀眾新的客人
日子又更忙了
我本身是個內向的人
不喜與人打交道
但如果什麼都看
自己喜不喜歡
永遠不會有出頭日
直播是我度眾的工具
我很愛惜
有時很累不想出境
怕人家嫌沒有精神
有時看了風水
流了滿身汗妝都花了
還是帶著笑容
出鏡為讀者解開迷惑
因為我曾發過願
對我師尊
對我師父
為我已故的婆婆
為我父母
沒有時間了
要快要快
有人笑
直播不流行了
不要浪費時間做
有人說
現在的人喜歡享樂
勸什麼善那麼落伍
但我有願在身
就算只有一個人看
我還是會做
因為那一個人
可能將來是我們佛教的棟樑
是社會的大貢獻者
說佛法給誰聽最難？
說給自己的家人聽
今天我在網路
說給你家人聽
可能⋯⋯有朝一日
以這微薄的功德
也能換來
我家人聽得懂佛法
真正讓真佛
住進他們的心中
永遠離苦得樂
昨天敲定一位台灣的資深剪輯師
幫我把這三年的直播
剪成Youtube影片
讓我能每星期上一支片
過去兩個月只上了一支片
卻多了三十八個訂閱
～飆淚
老娘為了出片給你們
就買少些衣服吧～壯烈犧牲ing～
我⋯⋯既期待又緊張
盼接下來的影片
你們會喜歡
謝謝你們一路陪著我
有你們真的真的很好
如果你們都向善向上
我這一生也值了 😄
⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯⋯
Tell you a secret.
While I have done almost 70 FB Lives (that's about 600 minutes of videos) in the past three years, I still get stage fright and very nervous before the camera rolled every time.
But in life, there are many things that you cannot wait till you have the courage before you do it. You just have to do it.
My initial motivation for doing Lives came from you. I was hoping that you would get to know me better, like me and believe my words, so that you will be willing to use Chinese Metaphysics and Buddhism to transfor and establish your own destiny.
Of course there were praises and criticism. Of course there were bitterness and joy.
Two years ago, I started editing my Lives to be uploaded on YouTube. That got me new audience and new clients. My days became busier.
I am an introvert by nature and do not like socialising. Yet if I only do things based on whether I like it or not, I will never have any breakthrough in my entire life.
Lives are my tools to deliver sentient beings. I cherish them very much. There were times when I felt too exhausted and did not want go on camera, in fear that the audience would find me looking tired. There were times when after Feng Shui audits, I would be soaked in perspiration and my makeup had melted, but I would still go Live with a smile and clarified the doubts of readers.
Because I had made a vow before. Towards my Grandmaster. Towards my Shifu. For my deceased grandmother. For my parents. Time is running out for me, so hurry I must.
Someone laughed at me, that Lives are getting passé and I should not be wasting them on that. Another one critiqued that modern people only delight in the pleasures of Life, so why am I being an old fad, preaching virtues and doing good?
But I have a vow carved in my soul.
Even if there is only a single person watching, I would still do it. For that one person may turn out to be a strong pillar of Buddhism, or a big contributor in our society.
Do you know speaking the Dharma to whom is the most difficult?
To my own family.
Today I share the Dharma to your family who may be watching my Lives. Perhaps, maybe, with the minuscule merits I generated, I may be able to exchange for my family being able to comprehend the Dharma one day, and sincerely welcome the True Buddha to reside in their hearts, opening up the pathway to eternal bliss and be free from sufferings.
Yesterday, we finalised on an experienced Taiwanese video editor to help me edit my 3 years of Lives into a Youtube video, so that I can finally upload a video weekly. In the last two months, I only managed to put up one video, and there were an increase in 38 subscribers. *cries
Thou shalt buy less clothes, so that thou can pay for the video editor. *heroic sacrifice
I am excited yet apprehensive. And I hope you will like the upcoming videos.
Thank you for staying with me all these years. It is really, truly great to have you. If all of you become more virtuous and proactive in doing good, then this lifetime of mine will be worth the bet. 😄
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